Charice Pempengco!

There's this girl from the Philippines who's generating a lot of buzz worldwide, she's a singer and she's only 16 years old and she has the voice of an angel. Her vocal abilities rival that of the great divas even, like Celine (who's her no.1 idol), Mariah, Whitney, etc. Her videos on Youtube served as a platform for her discovery, now she has even flown to the US to appear on Oprah and working and singing with people like David Foster, Andrea Bocelli, Josh Groban and even Celine herself! I wish her all the best and hope there'll be an official album out soon and can't wait to her it!

Acquiesce or action?

When it comes to politics, should we keep quiet and maintain the status quo or risk rocking the boat and having instability? I think there should be a balance but ultimately I believe in standing up for our rights. For things may appear to be fine at that particular moment but if the moment there is an infringement on our rights I think we should try to do something about it because if we don't then it might lead to more and more violations and one day we'll wake up and find that we have no more rights..No doubt will be difficult and some people may say it won't change anything but at least we try rather than letting them step all over us.

Acting: Nature or Nurture

I've often wondered, there's quite a few actors who followed in their parents' footsteps and they usually turn out to be decent actors. People usually say 'oh, they inherited the acting gene' but I wonder whether it's so much genes as the upbringing by the parents that made them to be potentially good actors. I mean it's quite logical if the parents themselves were brought up a certain way then they would bring up their children in that way too, therefore paving the way for their children to be good actors too right? Or could it be really in the genes and whichever way or whoever brought them up they would still be good actors? Hmm, I guess it is another example of the age old nature vs. nurture argument that no one can really prove conclusively...

Sincerely happy for other people.

Most people have to work. And most people wish they didn't. Yet there are those who don't have to work and yet people think they should. It's just so ridiculous, it's fucking hypocritical. People actually grudge someone if they have a better life than them, they can't stand seeing it and then they will attribute factors like, 'oh that person doesn't deserve it', 'oh he's so lazy' or whatever, in actual truth is they're just jealous that they're lives are not or was not like that. It's just screwed up. I mean we all get jealous, I get jealous also thinking of those multi-millionaires and whatever, but you know what? If they didn't cheat anyone to get it then shy should it bother me? It is rightfully theirs. People should just be sincerely happy to see other people happy, only then can there be peace in the world.

Youth is wasted on the young, because they think they have forever...

The adage youth is wasted on the young has been around i'm sure for quite a while. I used to think some old bitter geyser came up with it just because he was old already and couldn't stand it. But now when I think more about it, I have a strong feeling there was more to it than just the surface meaning. I think it doesn't just mean young people take youth for granted, but that they are not matured enough to know how to fully utilize and maximize their youth and strength. And because they think they're still young and not worried about growing old, they're not motivated at all to do anything near as productive as if they were old or going to die soon. If they thought they were running out of time then I'm sure many would not be so arrogant about themselves. When I encounter any rude or arrogant young person I always think: 'Wait 'till he gets old and we'll see if he still thinks he can get away with that kind of behaviour'. I know it's not good to think that way but some of them do really need a reality and 'mortality' check! Let's hope young people realise that life is fragile and can end anytime, it's no guarantee one will even get to grow old, so they should be grateful for the chance to be young.

Earth is 4.5 billion years old!

Parts of dialogue I had about my comment on Facebook: 4.5 billion years of earth and what are we but a speck of dust in the sands of time...

Yeah, just sometimes when I feel like I don't know where life and humanity is heading it makes me wonder, are we so self-important and caught up in our daily lives to not realize that it all actually means nothing when we are all dead and gone.

yes each one of us is unique but special? I'm not sure...Whether we mean anything in the bigger scheme of things is debatable.

I kinda disagree, no offence. That's just a way to console ourselves and validate our existence, the truth is, there is no way to prove that we're not just accidental life on this planet called earth and we build cities and monuments in the arrogance that we are great and mean something in this world, in this universe, when the likelihood is that we are actually just made up of particles that just live and die once expires.

I guess I'm coming from the angle of needing to know the meaning of our existence here and I'm getting more convinced that there is actually no meaning. We live, we eat, we shit, we fuck, we die.

Bring back the old 007!

What happened to James Bond? It seems the newer installations are nothing but like the typical insipid Hollywood action movie. Gone is the charm, the suave, the tongue-in-cheek humor, I even miss the chauvinistic attitude of the secret agent. For therein lies the charm and uniqueness of James Bond, he has to be somewhat unbelievable in his coolness factor and in getting out of impossible situations but the recent ones have been seriously lacking in these things. James Bond is meant to be un-pc, i.e. not politically correct, not all serious and real-life grittiness. For that is what is amusing and entertaining about the character. Without that, he losses his lustre and becomes a typical action hero that's just not so...James Bond.

Finding Neverland.

There is this wonderful movie, a gem that I just watched. I had actually watched it years ago but at that time did not have a blog. I just finished it with a friend and while watching it, got emotional all over again and cried a lot. It is one of the most touching movies I have seen, one with heart and soul which is rarely seen in movies nowadays. Coupled with a good script (it was adapted from a book) and a solid cast with sincere performances filled with conviction. It tells the story of how the author of Peter Pan came about writing the play and what inspired him to do so. It seems utterly believable even though there are quite a few scenes that seem too surreal and therein lies the magic, that we can see it with a childlike and innocent curiosity and not through an adult's jaded and judgmental thinking. Only then will the film mean anything. Magical...

Resenting other people's happiness...

What is it about people who can't stand seeing other people happy? I mean when I was an immature young man I was jealous of people who was better than me but as I got older and more matured I learned to look beyond my own biased illogical emotions and be happy for people who deserve to be. Maybe the people who aren't happy that I have a ncie life actually think I don't deserve it. But when I mean don't deserve it I mean people who are bad or who got their life through cheating people or whatever, not through legal means. So what if I inherited my wealth? It's my luck in life. Why do people grudge that? A lot of parents grudge that their kids have a better life than them when they were young. Isn't that what parents want? A better life for their kids? But when they do achieve that they tear the kids down by using it against them: 'oh you kspoilt brat, you know during my days we had to suffer so much, you don't even know. You haven't gone through anything worthwhile, you're all chickenshit!' or something to that effect...I just wish people can truly be happy for another person when the other person is doing better than them, I think that will be another really big step to having a peaceful world.

Whatever happened to all the old people?

Sometimes I wonder, where did all the old people go? Have they been totally forgotten by the general 'active' population and been squirreled away in old folks' homes and god knows where that they've been conveniently forgotten and ignored? Are we so youth oriented that we choose not to focus on the aged maybe because it stems from the horrifying thought that one day we will grow old also and consigned to the same fate as them? I really applaud the corporations that have embraced old people and decided to hire them as they can still be productive members of society (and hopefully not because they come cheap!). I hope one day when I'm old I won't be conveniently forgotten and become useless and holed up somewhere until I die. I hope my life means more than that...

Satisfaction. State of things. Happiness.

My conclusion about life happiness is that there is no happiness in life, only satisfied with current state and as long as there is no satisfaction of current state of things there will be no happiness, yet if there is satisfaction of current state then happiness is only short lived as states change and we can't be stagnant in a current state, so does that mean that happiness will never be found? Who knows?

The ties that bind...

I wonder...Is it possible to outgrow one's own family? A friend said it's not possible as family is as much apart of your life as being gay. But I disagree as I feel that family in the end are just people associated by similar genes if you think about it. Family is just a word that describes a group of people whom either gave birth or was birthed from the other. And the fact that it can be even used for when one's married to an outsider I don't really see what is so special about family in the end. I mean I'm not a cold-hearted bitch, but if you think about it, a family is just a collection of people that is similar to, let's say, a society of gamers or something...So what is it about the ties that bind? Are we so weak and dependant that we need to identify so-called family to ensure that we have something to fall back on? Hmm, in the end I think it's best if we depend on ourselves. I feel family can be the source of much negativity too, I mean nothing good can come out of forcing people to acknowledge each other and go through activities that usually just drive each o Mayther up the wall, I mean why bother? I'd rather spend time with peopl I truly like and connect with. Maybe I have outgrown my family...

Akihiro Sato!!!

Omg! I found this uber sexy male model online called Akihiro Sato! Apparently he's of Japanese-Brazilian-Thai heritage or something like that, obviously the combination worked out perfectly, he's stunning! I feel faint from looking at his pictures :P

Just a thought...

Want everyone to be happy, the world to be a better place, we all have 1 life, make love not war, when we depart this world it will all not matter anymore.. Look within ourselves and touch our own humanity and feel it's humble humility and pure emotion...

Damning regrets...

I just finished watching the movie Atonement. It struck a chord in me, not least that it was very touching towards the end. It set me thinking about regrets and mistakes in life. I'm sure most of us have a regret that is so major we keep thinking about it over time and keep wondering how things would have turned out if we had done things differently. I know I have. Maybe nothing as serious as causing a man to go to jail and eventually ending in his death like in the movie, but situations that could have impacted my life so much that would cause it to be altered significantly that it might be so different from how things turned out. There's a line from another movie, The Time Machine: 'You're a man haunted by those two most terrible words, What If?' I do believe that is the case for many people, and why some cannot move on and suffer the terrible weight of guilt upon their shoulders. How do we move on? I do not know, for if it already weighs so heavily then it is not so easily undone. Maybe that's why there's so much sadness and bitterness...

Unsophisticated non-masculinity in Malaysian gays

I am convinced that why Malaysia has a disproportionate number of twinkish gay boys (men would be giving them too much credit) and horribly tacky looking twinkish gay boys at that, is due to the fact that a lot of the gays in Malaysia are poor and have an inadequate background to prepare them for the hawards of a gay life, and thrust into it at a young age, they tend to have a misguided sense of what is fashionable, which is unfortunately, pieces of trashy rags and inappropriately obscene, not even sexy, just plain obscene outfits being worn (usually proudly) by the said twinks. It is bad enough they are anorexic looking, coupled with a trashy fashion sense, usually accentuated by dyed brown/blonde spiky hair and tacky bling and accesories, they are the epitome of gays-gone-wrong! Wherefore art thou the fab five from Queer Eye when you need them, I think their Malaysian brethren need them much more than the straight guys in America! This phenomenon (which many of us in Malaysia call, the shampoo boys) seems to be endemic in Malaysia and much less so in the neighbouring countries of Thailand, Indonesia, Singapore and all the other countries in Southeast Asia and probably even the world. It is my opinion that Malaysia has the LEAST masculine gay population anywhere and it is just simply sad that the gays here are simply quite ugly overall compared to the ones in other countries.