Name change..

I just don't understand how people can just change their names..Like on Facebook sometimes I want to look up someone that I haven't really been in contact for ages and suddenly I can't find the person, I thought maybe he or she deleted me from the friends list. No doubt that is sometimes the case but every once in awhile, I'll stumble upon the person but with a DIFFERENT name! Why would someone do that?! What could compel a person to change his or her name unless it was something so horrible for them to face that they had to resort to such exteme measures? Well, all I can say is, it would pay to be careful of these here-today-gone-tomorrow characters. Worse of all if they're your friend, are you supposed to call them by their old name or new name? Whatever!

Excerpts from a conversation..

'..even Snow White has seven men! No she has 7 dwarves...oooh she's so kinky!' this was in reference to how hard it is to get guys sometimes and even Snow White has several! Figuratively speaking of course..

'..lost weight but my bulge is still the same, I didn't lose weight in my bulge..' I said to my friend I lost weight but still retain my bulk and somehow he thought I said my bulge..and he doesn't mean the one above the waist..

'curi makan vs. openly makan' To those who do not speak Malay this means in the context of a relationship to 'secretly eat vs. openly eat' i.e. to cheat or to openly have sex with other guys even though attached..My policy is honesty is always the best..

'bottomfly' something to do with a sexual role..

Intolerable cruelty

I don't understand why old people become cranky bitter crackpots when they're old. Is it because they have it against the world and blames everyone that they don't have their youth anymore? Recently I noticed my mom has become progressively worse in her behaviour, i.e. her nagging and doom-and-gloom outlook on life, in fact nowadays she's starting to swear a lot! It worries me because she seems like a far cry from the woman I used to know when I was a child, I mean she never was like a sweet young thing but still, she had a brighter outlook on things, nowadays talking to her just makes me think that the world is going to end anytime. It's scary and it seems that most of my friends around my age are going through the same thing with their moms! What is it that makes old people just go all cucko when they reach a certain age?!?

Population quantity vs. quality

I think the world population has gotten out of hand. Now there are ever more people to clothe, feed, shelter, educate, etc that I think the whole world has adopted the mass market mentality to the extreme. We of course have the ubiquitous fast food that is still the most popular choice of food, food that has nary any nutritional value but enough to satiate our hunger until the next meal, even so called home cooked style restaurants nowadays cater to the masses due to over demand. Goods and property prices have shot up due to inflation resulting in the ever growing demand for cheap mass produced goods. All over the world more and more pesticides are used to ensure higher yielding crops, less and less quality materials are used to ensure more output and the list goes on. Even education, that most vaunted of life's pursuits, has become so commercialised and financially oriented, they're practically churning out cheap low quality graduates that more often than not means low quality jobs for them with no long term career security. Basically our world has too many people for our planet to sustain, we are running out of resources at an ever compounding rate and it truly is a case of quantity over quality where life is cheap, and minimum appreciation of virtues, where violence, cruelty and disregard or humanity abound. I do not dare to imagine what the future is truly like.

No Facebook in China..

Just got back from China, it was freezing cold there! -18 degrees in Beijing, though I really wanted to see snow but it was ridiculous sometimes, felt like my nose would break off or something, thank god nothing of that kind happened, but it was quite worth the cold to have a winter wonderland feel..anyways, I was shocked to find that there's no access to Facebook in China, the whole world is on Facebook nowadays and China is like totally cut off, so I had to live without Facebook for a week, wasn't that difficult actually, didn't suffer from some Facebook withdrawal or anything..though now that I'm back I have a ton of messages and notifications to go through..well, back to the grind..

Avatar

This is not another review of the movie. What I want to say here is that I think it's so much harder to become household names nowadays. James Cameron who directed this movie also directed Titanic and it was such a huge movie but I think if Titanic was released today it probably wouldn't have the same impact that it did more than 10 years ago. Nowadays blockbusters are a dime a dozen and unknown actors remain unknown, unlike the stars of Titanic Kate Winslet and Leonardo DiCaprio who were elevated from relative obscurity to superstardom, I doubt that will happen with Avatar where the unknown actors become overnight sensations..

Sex addiction..

I just read an article on Oprah.com that deals with sexual addiction, and she actually had a show about that. So as with most of her shows, she had guests on who talked about their sexual addiction and it was interesting that all of them were actually not addicted to the sex per se, but were looking for other things like validation, intimacy, etc that they did not know how to achieve the normal way. The other component was apparently lack of self worth and esteem which would trigger that kind of behaviour that feeds their emotional shortcomings..as a gay person, I wonder if it's an epidemic affecting majority of gay men, since we are known to be promiscuous, but usually it's attributed to the fact that we're men and of course we want sex, but does it go deeper than that? Does it maybe have something to do with the self image and insecurities as gay men both with their bodies and lack of security in terms of a conventional marriage that straight people are expected to have that we lack that is causing it? Causing many gay men to seek security and validation from sex? I think there is a huge possibility it is so..